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Book Details:

Author: Rudith Moore 
Release Date: May 11, 2025
Series: Fall of Haven (Book #1)
Genre: Speculative Fiction, Thriller, Literary Fiction, Dystopian
Format: E-book 
Pages: 282 pages
Publisher: –
Blurb:
‘It was Hae-sol’s idea, Haven.
Always been obsessed with medicines and the idea of healing those he deemed broken, perhaps because of the cruel way he was raised and the trauma that’s festered because of it… or perhaps because inwardly, he’s struggling to maintain his sanity, refusing to admit it until he can find and secure a definite remedy.’

Kyun-ho was eleven years old when him and his best friend created Haven.
They made Haven to help Kyun-ho’s brother cope with the cruel way society and their family treated him due to his schizophrenia.
Hae-sol and Kyun-ho would pretend to be his doctors, and Tae-kyun was happy because they only treated him with what made him happy.
Candy and teas for medicine, toys and games for therapy. That was Haven.
Until Hae-sol notices Tae-kyun’s condition is getting worse.
Until Hae-sol is no longer pretending to be his doctor, because he’s convinced he can truly fix Tae-kyun and anyone else he deems broken.
Until time has passed, and now they are 30, and only one of them can recognize the harm that came from Hae-sol’s doctoring, and the horror of all the crimes they’ve buried beneath that treehouse Haven was birthed in.
This is the story of Hae-sol and Kyun-ho, and the aftermath of a purposeful game of pretend.

Review

Reading Children of Dysphoria by Rudith Moore feels like stepping into a slow-burning fever dream that stares directly into the disquieting face of society, trauma, identity, and the perilous tightrope between victimhood and vengeance. This is literary dystopia at its most searing, but also at its most nuanced.

The story weaves between multiple deeply traumatized characters—Kyun-ho, Hae-sol, Tae-kyun, Hyeong-cheol, and others—all children and teens weathered by neglect, abuse, institutional failure, and inherited pain. It reads like a series of fragmented testimonies carved into the walls of a collapsing world. Moore’s style is lyrical and feverish, sometimes poetic and sometimes claustrophobically visceral, but always emotionally exacting. Every sentence feels like it costs something. And you feel that cost.

The trauma here is not sanitized. It’s complex, intersectional, and real—told through children navigating psychosis, autism, addiction, suicidal ideation, generational abuse, and religious gaslighting. The prose doesn’t flinch from showing us what it means to survive in a world that refuses to see you as worthy of gentleness. But even in that brutal clarity, there is grace. There is care.

What astounds me most is how author Moore lets each character remain fully themselves, neither purely victims nor perfectly redemptive. Kyun-ho, for instance, is deeply flawed, a child forced into a caregiver role, riddled with guilt and anger, desperate for control in a life shaped by chaos. His love for Tae-kyun and complicated grief over Hae-sol are layered with such honesty, it’s hard not to ache with him.

There’s no plot in the traditional sense, and that’s intentional. The narrative moves like memory in a fragmented, circular, and nonlinear way. Scenes echo and haunt each other. The pacing is deliberately erratic, forcing the reader to experience the confusion, fatigue, and spiraling disassociation these children live with every day.

This book is emotionally rich, deeply upsetting at times, and will leave you gutted. But it’s also one of the most important portrayals of complex trauma and neurodivergence I’ve come across in contemporary fiction. It doesn’t just ask for empathy; it demands understanding.

Children of Dysphoria is not for everyone. But if you’re willing to sit with discomfort, to read with your whole heart, this book will stay with you. It’s a masterwork of pain and love, of what it means to be broken and still reaching for something more. This book is not for passive readers. But if you allow it, it will reward you with an unforgettable reading experience that lingers in the bones.

Highly recommended for readers of Kathy Acker, Carmen Maria Machado, and Samuel R. Delany. A devastating, brilliant work of speculative literature.

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